Written by Mike Berry
02/05/2018
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Have you ever envisioned something a certain way only to have it turn out differently than you planned?
How did you feel about that?
Happy? Probably not. Disappointed? That’s more likely. Maybe you even felt disillusioned?
That’s
the way I felt in 1999 when my wife suggested we adopt all our kids. I
adamantly resisted and even flat-out said “No!” Not that I was against
adoption or caring for children who weren’t biologically ours. I just
didn’t fully understand how adoption works. I had grown up in a family
that did things the old-fashioned way. Everyone came in to our family
biologically.
But
adoption was a big part of my wife’s family story. Thus, her heart was
passionate about it. And soon enough, my heart changed too. I have God
to thank for that. He woke me up and brought me out of shallow thinking
and a rather self-centered existence.
To
be honest, the foster and adoptive journey has tested us over the past
13 years like nothing else. Don’t misunderstand what I’m saying — we
love the precious children we’ve been blessed with and have been called
to parent. But some of our children suffer from special needs, a result
of past trauma, that has made this very hard; at times it feels
completely defeating.
While
we wouldn’t trade a moment, or a child, we’ve found ourselves on the
brink of complete exhaustion. Beyond that, our hearts have been broken —
broken for our children and the past trauma they’ve endured, broken for
birth parents and their deep sense of loss and pain, but most of all
brokenhearted for a world in which innocent children long for a forever
home.
That’s when the words in Psalm 34:17-18 envelop us like a warm blanket, in spite of the cold world in which we live: “The LORD hears his people when they call to him for help. He rescues them from all their troubles. The LORD is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.”
God allows us to experience
seasons that are heartbreaking, but character-molding and
spirit-enriching, and then He faithfully draws us near and heals our
brokenness.
I
may have resisted the adoption and foster care journey in the
beginning, but the tragedy and heartbreak of it was exactly what I
needed to understand the depth of my heart and the healing power of my
Heavenly Father.
The life I’m living is the
furthest thing from the story I originally scripted for myself. But it’s
a more beautiful and powerful story than I could have imagined. It’s
penned by the Creator of the world. And it’s making me the best possible
version of myself!
Heavenly
Father, I ask You to reveal the depths of my heart. Lead me into
situations, circumstances and experiences that break me, but mold me
into a better version of myself. By the power of Your Holy Spirit, may I
say “yes.” May I not resist. And may I faithfully trust that You are
leading me every step of the way. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
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Truth For TodayIsaiah 40:28-31, “Have you never heard? Have you never understood? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of all the earth. He never grows weak or weary. No one can measure the depths of his understanding. He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion. But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.” (NLT)
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